Tuesday, August 22, 2006
hmm...
2 days has gone and friday is approaching .. weekend for sure i staying at home .. no $$ to hang out .. haiz wht to do .. deserve it ? ya in a way ... why ? ..
Yesterday late last night well i got a surprise sms from her .. i thought is wht .. end is she in need of $150 to settle her hp bills .. well jus like Jas had sae ... i 1 day will die in the hands of the lady i love .. i jus can't sae a simple "No" and tht's it .. YES ... she not my gf , not my wife , not my family .. she jus only a gal tht i love .. i can jus don lend .. but sadly i can't .. rather to see her suffering .. will rather help her whtever i can
in my own capacity limits ...
Jus nice i spend my last mth pay and don have any single penny wif mi .. and jus submit my timesheet yesterday ... cheque only comes after 5pm on Friday .. no choice but to loan from friends first ... manage to secure a loan from Laoda .. and other loan from my campmate .. so i told her i be xfer to her on 2morrow afternoon .. also have a chit chat for dunno-how-mani-god-damn-yrs in Msn .. found out she still currently single despite all those stuffs circulating her .. anyway i do make preparation of anytime she kana "booked" .. after tht slept at 1am ..
So todae was whole day waiting for a loan from my campmate .. end up it did not materialize .. well maybe miracle happen ? someone deposit cheque to mi yesterday and i have $100 to spare .. so i xfer total of $150 to her .. well yeah i know i stupid .. under no condition jus lend to her .. easy $$ eh ?
Well i begin to feel living as a human is constantly facing mammoth task ... kinda of tired of life ... seeing how my buddy juggle his stuff , the surrounding of anywhere ... make mi more sian .. dunno why perhaps i should take a long break and go oversea enjoy .. too bad no $$ .. so have to rot in this small island...
Well Yesterday get quite a earful from Laoda , Hakim and Xiao Tan .. ya thanks i know wht u 3 trying to sae .. but i jus can't leave her in lurch like tht .. i simple don bear too .. this is the perhaps greatest weakness ba ... i perhaps like Jas sae .. will die under the hands of the lady i love .. anyway see when tht day comes ba ..
Oh todae Jie also advice also .. well thx buddy i know wht u mean .. i know u trying to tok sense into mi ... but u should know my character better than others .. especially on matters regarding her .. i jus can't put down and sae i don care .. although u maybe rite .. i have no real worries other than relationship problem .. is enough to drain my mental tired le .. ya i know u will feel gek sim when u see this .. but then isn't life is suppose to be like tht ? u had your struggle .. to maintain ur relationship going .. well i ? still pursuing a gal which don like mi , who treat mi as a brother , who i jus lend her $$ without any condition .. i know i dumb .. yet i know .. but wht to do ? life is unfair :) tht's is the fact .. some CBK may get wht they DON deserve .. while some who truely deserve don get .. don worry too much also la .. yeah i appreciate ur advise .. i get wht u mean .. don worry :)
God damn it .. i damn tired ..
Fade Away
8/22/2006 11:15:00 PM
